crushes...

i can't think of anything worse. why do i have to make the most severe crushes on people i have no chance with? i always want more than i can get and it needs to stop. peace

feelin

a little flat atm. apparently i have tonsillitis and heaps enjoy not being able to swallow and eat. not to mention the fact that i have four assignments due within the next 3 weeks? why must teachers insist on giving us more work when we need to be 'preparing' for 'our futures'. so anyone who is keen on public speaking and would relish the idea of a ten minute speech on malaria without palm cards, call me.

so

fucking insecure

drifting

back into my old ways. thinking i can wait until i go to uni, spend a few years globe trotting with the best friend. thats why i undoubtedly want. on the plus side, if i start uni when i'm like 20 apparently the government will give me money because i'm a mature aged student, who wouldn't want that? i honestly just want to disappear for like 2 years...

trials are going, slowly. maths on monday- not ready, cafs on tuesday- not ready, bio and pd on wednesday- certainly not ready. this sucks

true love

give me england, give me the underground, over and over again

hmm...

i hate being bored, none of the friends are talking, i'm sitting in a pile of maths notes not looking at any and i'm waiting for someone who probably won't show. how swell is life...

finally

figured out what i want to do with my life minus the travelling and the partying and the general highs of life. only snag is i now need to somehow procure a 90.25 uai. this seems to be a bit of a problem seeing the last year of schooling has pretty much been going towards nothing, hence the not trying part, only now it is going towards something. i really hope i don't mess this up

ps. need to memorise four essays and one creative writing piece by tomorrow. hello trials, i really love you

i love

how things always seem to happen when you stop trying. you are finally happy and content about going without, when all of a sudden you don't have to. aka hey ryan. new philosophy - stop wanting things

also, trials start on monday. safe to say i am not ready. so looking forward to quiet procrastination in the examination room mmm......

wish list

- november second
um thats all.
over and out

giving up

on trying to please people, if you don't like me deal with it by yourself. also giving up on attemps to find a 'formal date' slash boy in general. i hate you newcastle

i want

him to ask me

lack of colour

can everyone just ignore me for the next few months please. its guaranteed that i'm in a bad mood most days because of the hsc and lack of any enthusiasm. i want out